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Post by Deleted on Apr 29, 2015 7:21:37 GMT -5
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Post by shaxper on Apr 29, 2015 18:27:04 GMT -5
Been an extremely rough day on so many fronts. Beyond my post-concussive syndrome, which continues to be a serious long term problem for me since my accident in October, I was blindsided today with news from two fronts today -- the school district I work for is implementing a new contract that will discontinue spousal health benefits, force us to teach an extra class (it's already impossible to get all my planning, grading, meetings, and parental contact done during the two prep periods I have now), virtual academies in which some of our classes will now have us monitoring up to 100 students being taught by software rather than teaching up to 30 kids via traditional instruction, and that all of this will result in countless layoffs (likely not me, but still...). I just completed my first yearly evaluation under the new super-stringent state guidelines under which it is nearly impossible to score perfect, and yet I scored perfect. I'd like to be proud of myself and all I do, but then this news comes right on its heels. No matter what we do, educators are hated in this day and age. We're to blame for everything, and I've lost the energy to be angry. I'm just deeply, deeply hurt.
If that wasn't enough, my wife completely blindsided me with the news tonight that she's thinking divorce. I don't even have the energy to discuss how this feels nor why I absolutely did not see this coming. No one cheated. No one's been hitting anyone or abusing substances. No one has fallen out of love. I'm just...thrown.
So yeah. It's been that kind of a day. I don't usually open up around here. Ever since the move, folks don't treat me the same, jokingly referring to me as the grand dictator for life or politely backing away from disagreement and debate because my opinion shouldn't be contradicted or I might ban them if I get offended or something. Been a long time since I felt like I was among friends here, but I really need that feeling tonight.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 29, 2015 19:03:42 GMT -5
Been an extremely rough day on so many fronts. Beyond my post-concussive syndrome, which continues to be a serious long term problem for me since my accident in October, I was blindsided today with news from two fronts today -- the school district I work for is implementing a new contract that will discontinue spousal health benefits, force us to teach an extra class (it's already impossible to get all my planning, grading, meetings, and parental contact done during the two prep periods I have now), virtual academies in which some of our classes will now have us monitoring up to 100 students being taught by software rather than teaching up to 30 kids via traditional instruction, and that all of this will result in countless layoffs (likely not me, but still...). I just completed my first yearly evaluation under the new super-stringent state guidelines under which it is nearly impossible to score perfect, and yet I scored perfect. I'd like to be proud of myself and all I do, but then this news comes right on its heels. No matter what we do, educators are hated in this day and age. We're to blame for everything, and I've lost the energy to be angry. I'm just deeply, deeply hurt. If that wasn't enough, my wife completely blindsided me with the news tonight that she's thinking divorce. I don't even have the energy to discuss how this feels nor why I absolutely did not see this coming. No one cheated. No one's been hitting anyone or abusing substances. No one has fallen out of love. I'm just...thrown. So yeah. It's been that kind of a day. I don't usually open up around here. Ever since the move, folks don't treat me the same, jokingly referring to me as the grand dictator for life or politely backing away from disagreement and debate because my opinion shouldn't be contradicted or I might ban them if I get offended or something. Been a long time since I felt like I was among friends here, but I really need that feeling tonight. I really don't know what kind of words of advice to give you. All I know is that I'm so very, VERY sorry that you are going through all of this, especially the stuff with your wife.  I know that I definitely don't mind you opening up, and I know I have, and I really appreciate it when others do as well. I know I don't post here a ton, but I really feel comfortable posting with you people. You all feel like big brothers to me (you know, like, ones I don't see often or ever, but yeah). And I'm just really sorry. <3 I really hope that you and your wife can work everything out, and I hope things with your job turn around. |
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Post by thwhtguardian on Apr 29, 2015 19:16:58 GMT -5
Been an extremely rough day on so many fronts. Beyond my post-concussive syndrome, which continues to be a serious long term problem for me since my accident in October, I was blindsided today with news from two fronts today -- the school district I work for is implementing a new contract that will discontinue spousal health benefits, force us to teach an extra class (it's already impossible to get all my planning, grading, meetings, and parental contact done during the two prep periods I have now), virtual academies in which some of our classes will now have us monitoring up to 100 students being taught by software rather than teaching up to 30 kids via traditional instruction, and that all of this will result in countless layoffs (likely not me, but still...). I just completed my first yearly evaluation under the new super-stringent state guidelines under which it is nearly impossible to score perfect, and yet I scored perfect. I'd like to be proud of myself and all I do, but then this news comes right on its heels. No matter what we do, educators are hated in this day and age. We're to blame for everything, and I've lost the energy to be angry. I'm just deeply, deeply hurt. If that wasn't enough, my wife completely blindsided me with the news tonight that she's thinking divorce. I don't even have the energy to discuss how this feels nor why I absolutely did not see this coming. No one cheated. No one's been hitting anyone or abusing substances. No one has fallen out of love. I'm just...thrown. So yeah. It's been that kind of a day. I don't usually open up around here. Ever since the move, folks don't treat me the same, jokingly referring to me as the grand dictator for life or politely backing away from disagreement and debate because my opinion shouldn't be contradicted or I might ban them if I get offended or something. Been a long time since I felt like I was among friends here, but I really need that feeling tonight. Wow...seriously, that's a lot to take in just for me, so I can only begin to imagine how it must be for you. I don't think there is anything any one of us could say to make any of that easier on you, but I feel for you man. You're a truly good person, and knowing that I believe you'll be equal to any challenge you may face. |
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Post by Pharozonk on Apr 29, 2015 19:25:29 GMT -5
Been an extremely rough day on so many fronts. Beyond my post-concussive syndrome, which continues to be a serious long term problem for me since my accident in October, I was blindsided today with news from two fronts today -- the school district I work for is implementing a new contract that will discontinue spousal health benefits, force us to teach an extra class (it's already impossible to get all my planning, grading, meetings, and parental contact done during the two prep periods I have now), virtual academies in which some of our classes will now have us monitoring up to 100 students being taught by software rather than teaching up to 30 kids via traditional instruction, and that all of this will result in countless layoffs (likely not me, but still...). I just completed my first yearly evaluation under the new super-stringent state guidelines under which it is nearly impossible to score perfect, and yet I scored perfect. I'd like to be proud of myself and all I do, but then this news comes right on its heels. No matter what we do, educators are hated in this day and age. We're to blame for everything, and I've lost the energy to be angry. I'm just deeply, deeply hurt. If that wasn't enough, my wife completely blindsided me with the news tonight that she's thinking divorce. I don't even have the energy to discuss how this feels nor why I absolutely did not see this coming. No one cheated. No one's been hitting anyone or abusing substances. No one has fallen out of love. I'm just...thrown. So yeah. It's been that kind of a day. I don't usually open up around here. Ever since the move, folks don't treat me the same, jokingly referring to me as the grand dictator for life or politely backing away from disagreement and debate because my opinion shouldn't be contradicted or I might ban them if I get offended or something. Been a long time since I felt like I was among friends here, but I really need that feeling tonight. I'm so sorry to hear that all of this has been happening to you, shax. I can't say that I've ever been in your shoes, but nevertheless, never forget that you are among friends here. We are always here if feel the need to rant or get anything off your chest. This is a family, a community you built and never forget that we're always here for you. |
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Post by Deleted on Apr 29, 2015 19:26:54 GMT -5
I'm sorry Shax. That sucks.
Also, you ARE among friends here.
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Post by adamwarlock2099 on Apr 29, 2015 19:31:16 GMT -5
Shax, my wife is always really involved in the politics and inter workings of our boys education, and it really does upset me that many parents and the government shit on educators, but expect the miraculous results of perfect citizens due to their education. They don't want to fund, they don't want to help, they don't want to specialize; but they want the teachers to raise perfect children and citizens. I have all the utmost respect for educators and the tireless work they do, because they really do care about each and every child. And when the government takes that away through funding, resources, or piling too many kids in one classroom it is virtually impossible for them to do so. While many of them also have children of their own. Kids are at school, what 7-8 hours a day and the rest of the time they are at home. That time at home is for parents, to you know, parent. Anyway it's starting to sound like a rant rather than a kind word, so I'll quit.
I dunno about other posters but I back out a lot of many debates. It's not you, I've done it a lot hear and on every forum I've been on due to my non confrontational nature. I don't want to be the one that posts something that I might think pushes them away from the forum. An opinion just isn't worth that to me. But it's certainly not you. I've bowed out with many people here.
As far as divorce, I've never really had to deal with it in any aspect of my life, so I don't know what to say. I've said things in the past with friends or relatives that backfired on me (not that they were angry at me) because I don't know how they feel about it. The instinct is to say "I'm sorry", but that isn't always what they want to hear. So I'll leave it to that.
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Post by Icctrombone on Apr 29, 2015 20:26:50 GMT -5
Shax, I'm so sorry. I've gone through a divorce and it stinks. See if you two can reconcile , do what you can to save the marriage. You can always talk to me, I've never viewed you as a dictator. You saved us by starting this forum and I'll always be grateful.
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Post by thwhtguardian on Apr 29, 2015 21:03:09 GMT -5
I'm sorry Shax. That sucks. Also, you ARE among friends here. Very much so, this place is family. |
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Post by shaxper on Apr 29, 2015 21:20:25 GMT -5
Thanks, folks. Thanks.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 29, 2015 21:52:51 GMT -5
Just got in from work and saw the post Shax. Just kind of stunned for you man. You are among friends, and we certainly appreciate all you do even if it feels your efforts may not be appreciated elsewhere. Sorry to hear things have become a struggle, and if there's anything I can do...
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Post by shaxper on Apr 29, 2015 22:06:10 GMT -5
It's not at all that I feel unappreciated. Sorry if it came off that way. It's that I feel isolated. If anything, folks are too respectful to me and don't treat me like I'm just another member of the community. I never wanted to be an Admin; I did it because someone had to in order to keep this community going. And, if there wasn't work that needed to be constantly done to ensure this community remains viable and continues to attract new members so that it doesn't dry up and die a few years down the line, I'd officially demote myself. But there's always more work to be done, and so I remain the admin. I've never been comfortable with being treated like one, though.
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Post by the4thpip on Apr 30, 2015 6:18:49 GMT -5
Been an extremely rough day on so many fronts. Beyond my post-concussive syndrome, which continues to be a serious long term problem for me since my accident in October, I was blindsided today with news from two fronts today -- the school district I work for is implementing a new contract that will discontinue spousal health benefits, force us to teach an extra class (it's already impossible to get all my planning, grading, meetings, and parental contact done during the two prep periods I have now), virtual academies in which some of our classes will now have us monitoring up to 100 students being taught by software rather than teaching up to 30 kids via traditional instruction, and that all of this will result in countless layoffs (likely not me, but still...). I just completed my first yearly evaluation under the new super-stringent state guidelines under which it is nearly impossible to score perfect, and yet I scored perfect. I'd like to be proud of myself and all I do, but then this news comes right on its heels. No matter what we do, educators are hated in this day and age. We're to blame for everything, and I've lost the energy to be angry. I'm just deeply, deeply hurt. If that wasn't enough, my wife completely blindsided me with the news tonight that she's thinking divorce. I don't even have the energy to discuss how this feels nor why I absolutely did not see this coming. No one cheated. No one's been hitting anyone or abusing substances. No one has fallen out of love. I'm just...thrown. So yeah. It's been that kind of a day. I don't usually open up around here. Ever since the move, folks don't treat me the same, jokingly referring to me as the grand dictator for life or politely backing away from disagreement and debate because my opinion shouldn't be contradicted or I might ban them if I get offended or something. Been a long time since I felt like I was among friends here, but I really need that feeling tonight. Whoa, man. Really sorry about the unexpected obstacle course. |
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Post by The Captain on Apr 30, 2015 6:25:26 GMT -5
Been an extremely rough day on so many fronts. Beyond my post-concussive syndrome, which continues to be a serious long term problem for me since my accident in October, I was blindsided today with news from two fronts today -- the school district I work for is implementing a new contract that will discontinue spousal health benefits, force us to teach an extra class (it's already impossible to get all my planning, grading, meetings, and parental contact done during the two prep periods I have now), virtual academies in which some of our classes will now have us monitoring up to 100 students being taught by software rather than teaching up to 30 kids via traditional instruction, and that all of this will result in countless layoffs (likely not me, but still...). I just completed my first yearly evaluation under the new super-stringent state guidelines under which it is nearly impossible to score perfect, and yet I scored perfect. I'd like to be proud of myself and all I do, but then this news comes right on its heels. No matter what we do, educators are hated in this day and age. We're to blame for everything, and I've lost the energy to be angry. I'm just deeply, deeply hurt. If that wasn't enough, my wife completely blindsided me with the news tonight that she's thinking divorce. I don't even have the energy to discuss how this feels nor why I absolutely did not see this coming. No one cheated. No one's been hitting anyone or abusing substances. No one has fallen out of love. I'm just...thrown. So yeah. It's been that kind of a day. I don't usually open up around here. Ever since the move, folks don't treat me the same, jokingly referring to me as the grand dictator for life or politely backing away from disagreement and debate because my opinion shouldn't be contradicted or I might ban them if I get offended or something. Been a long time since I felt like I was among friends here, but I really need that feeling tonight. I'm really sorry to hear you're going through all of this. My prayers are with you, and please know that you are among friends here, whether you feel like it or not. |
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Post by Cei-U! on Apr 30, 2015 7:21:43 GMT -5
So sorry this all got dumped on you at once, shax. You're family as far as I'm concerned and I hate seeing my family in pain. Feel free to unload on me via PM anytime you need to vent.
Cei-U!
I summon the support!
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